Welcome to my darkness. If you've come to condemn or are offended by the insanity at this blog then GO AWAY! Your God doesn't live here!
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7/30/05

SARA'S BACK!!!

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Okay, not really. I'm back but leaving again for Chicago soon.

LAURA!!!Image hosted by Photobucket.com
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Where have you been? I've tried emailing you in the past few months but I get no responce. :( I miss you. If you read this send me an email at xsaraxpoex@gmail.com and I'll respond RIGHT AWAY!!!

Sooooo, I had BIG fun with Lora's family in the Quad Cities. She introduced me as her "friend" Sara but a few days later told them we're a couple and they mostly took it well. Her cousin (12 yr old girl) thought it was discusting (12 yr old WHORE!)but she got over it.
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Lora also got some info about her dad, whom she has NEVER even met.

He's in prison. :( Looooong story that I won't even get into now.

We also went skinny dippin' on one of those 115 degree days. WITH GUYS!!! Yes, that's right! Sara Poe saw her FIRST actual real live PENIS MONSTER!!! RRAARRWW!

Actually I saw four of them and when the guys saw me checking them out (blantently!) then asking them why they were so small, they kinda stayed in the water or wrapped in towels after that. Lora wouldn't take her clothes off at first but after sitting on the bank for about twenty minutes in the EXTREME heat he stripped down to her thong and bra and got in with us. (There were five girls and four guys in all.)
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We stayed in a two room apartment above Lora's aunt's garage that had NO air conditioning. It sucked beyond words but I didn't complain. Lora has never met these people and I didn't want to ruin it for her in any way.

Anyways, I'm glad we're home. :)

Here's some cool stuff I got emailed to me while I was gone.

FREE BUFFY EPISODES!
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Buffy season five, six and seven. Full episodes with Angel season five.
http://astro.ph.unimelb.edu.au/~akarick/buffy/

Plus some South Park episodes!
http://www.southpark.boo.pl/odcinki.htm

That's all for now. No more emails from my Internet stalker. I guess the peeps at the wrestling board took care of it. YAY!
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I closing, I give you...PIE!
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~Sara<3<3<3

7/22/05

See you all laterz!

I just wanted everyone to know that Lora and me are heading up to the Quad Cities to visit some of her relatives that she hasn't seen since forever. I'll probably be gone for a week or so. Tell anyone that asks at te Benbo(Nobody will ask but still...)that I'm on vacation and will eventually return! :D

Be careful with your lives and I'll see y'all when I get home.

~Sara Jane Poe, Insane Moppet!

7/20/05

Frustrating!!!

Why is it that you just can NOT be nice to SOME men?

I checked my email earlier and found something from this guy I talk to a lot at a wrestling message board I visit. In his email he basically tells me that he thinks it's time that we (he and I) confront our "feelings" for each other and see where things take us.

I reply that my only feelings for him is friendship. I'm in a relationship that I value more than life and would NEVER do anything to mess that up.

He replies back that he KNOWS I have feelings for him by the way I talk/flirt/pay attention to him. He says that he understands I can't say anything about it in an email because Lora might read it.

I tell him that NONONONO! I do NOTNOTNOTNOT have any such feelings toward him and he needs to just forget about it. So he emails me back a very angry reply basically telling me that he is ABSOLUTELY sure of how I feel. So I say "fuck it" and email him back a VERY nasty message telling him to fuck off and leave me the fuck alone. Then I blocked him.

This has happened to me before and it really sucks that I have to lose a friend. So I want to make it perfectly clear to anyone reading this; I flirt. I am nice to people that I like as friends. I will continue to be the exact same person that I have always been. I HAVE NO FEELINGS FOR ANYONE ONLINE OTHER THAN FRIENDSHIP! I'm sure that most of the people that read my blog already know this but if you don't or if you're seeing my blog for the first time, understand that there is no way, no shape, no form that anything will EVER develope between myself and ANYONE other than friendship!!!

I won't send you nudies. I won't talk to you on the phone. I will not EVER under ANY conditions meet and/or sleep with you! It's not going to happen. I am EXTREMELY happy with my sweet baby, Lorabelle Tempest Riley, and you could never in a million years even begin to touch what she means to me.

'nuff said!

~Sara<3

Weird life and weird lives

This is gonna be a long post with a boring story, Sara-facts and pics of where I live. So don't even bother reading it.
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Also, I'll be offline for a while due to a trip we're taking to visit family out of town.

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Sara Facts!
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Name: Sara Jane Poe
Birthday: October 13th, 1985
Birthplace: Chicago, IL
Current Location: Just outside Quincy, IL
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Chestnut Brown
Height: 5'1
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: Scottish
The Shoes You Wore Today: none
Your Weakness: scarey movies
Your Fears: deep water
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni, ham, mushrooms and double cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to write a book
Thoughts First Waking Up: Lora
Your Best Physical Feature: my eyes, I guess
Your Bedtime: usually 9am
Your Most Missed Memory: I don't remember
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonalds or Burger King: BK
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: BOTH!
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: only when I'm mad
Do you Sing: only when I'm alone
Do you Shower Daily: yes
Have you Been in Love: yes, I am NOW
Do you want to go to College: Maybe
Do you want to get Married: Yes
Do you belive in yourself: yes
Do you get Motion Sickness: no
Do you think you are Attractive: a little
Are you a Health Freak: no
Do you get along with your Parents: yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: VERY MUCH
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Lora's sushi :)
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: yes
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: often
Ever been Beaten up: yes :(
Ever Shoplifted: once
How do you want to Die: .....
What country would you most like to Visit: Scotland
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This is Quincy. On the left side of the pic is West Quincy, Missouri. You can see the mini race car track if you look closely.

My little sister Laura showed up at my house yesterday morning pretty upset with me. "WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO CREEPY!" She screamed! It seems that her boyfriend of nearly two years, Rob Hammond, seems to think I'm cool and has been talking about me somewhat. He likes my darkness.

This has angered my sister for some odd reason that I can't, but Lora does, understand. So after telling me how she felt, and me telling her how much I do NOT care, my sister left swearing to never bring Rob over to my house again.

Rob is the little brother of my former high school tormenter extreme, Jeffrey Hammond. Jeffrey was the one that played the secret admirerer prank on my in 9th grade.

Jeffrey's dead now. Killed in a car crash in Iowa a while back. I, of course, am NOT caring too much about this also.
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Anyways, later on Lora and me were in town driving down Broadway and guess who we saw. Rob. He was with somme friends just walking. He sees us and begins jumping up and dawn, motioning for us to come back. I tell Lora to go around the block so I can ask him about what my sister was talking about.

Lora is like, "You're not seriously gonna ask him about that are you?"

"Why not?" asks I.

"It would be embarrissing to Laura, that's why NOT." She answers. "You know he has a crush on you."

"DOES NOT!" Yell I!

"DOES!" Yells Lora back! "And I can prove it."

"How?"

"When we pull up tell him to get in the car because we're going to use him as our personal slave today. We'll take him shopping with us and use him as our little doormat. I bet he takes it without complaining." Was he suggestion.

"What are we betting?" I wondered.

Our bet, as per my suggestion, was that if Lora lost she would have to wear my fake mustache for the rest of the day. EVEN IN PUBLIC! If I had lost pig latin would be the only form of communication I could use for the entire day. (Pig Latin is when you put the first letter of every word at the end of it and add an "a." So he sentence. "Do you have hairy balls." would become "oDa ouya aveha airyha allsba."

I would have to use it whenever I talked or, being the message board freak that I am, wrote any form of communication.

So I took off my helmet and we pull up on this guy, ask him if he'd rather hang out with his friends or go shopping with us at the mall and carry everything we buy. He smiles a HUGE farmboy smile, says later to his friends, and is used and abused by me and Lora for the next four hours. (We did buy him lunch at DQ so it wasn't SO horrible.)

The entire time I'm sending him all over every store we go into to fetch things for me and he's just LOVING the crap outta it. He obeys Lora, too, but won't jump thru hoops for her the way he did for me.

By the time it's over and we leave the mall I start talking entirely in pig latin. Rob didn't understand a thing I said and vengeful lesbo Lora refused to explain it to him. (How the heck does ANY 16 year old NOT know pig latin???)

It was funny as hell when we pulled up at his house to drop him off and my little sis was sitting on his porch waiting for him. Lora and me both started laughing when we saw the angry look on her face. I know it pissed her off to no end but we didn't even stop to explain ourselves.
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He got out of the car and we took off leaving him to face a 16 year old girl that I tortured almost mercilessly growing up. (Yeah, I did some pretty fucked up things to her, as my friend Agric will tell you.)

So the rest of the day I spoke nothing but pig latin. Even last night at the Bendis Board, Lora sat with me to make sure that every single word I typed was in pig latin. (We had fun with it at the board tho.)

We even stopped by my step-dad's resturant. He's so use to my oddities that when I started talking to him he just responded in PL himself and went about his business. He is the COOLEST guy I know!!!

Anyways, that's the long boring story. I wouldn't even post it but my blog has felt neglected lately and I don't want it to think I'm ignoring it.

I dreamt last night of a deserted high school full of rats and roaches. I was living in it and trying to avoid the wild dogs that were stalking me for food. It ended with all the dogs attacking and biting me and me crawling thru cracks in the walls trying to escape from them but they could fit thru the cracks too so I couldn't escape.

One of my better nightmares, I think.

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President Bill Clinton in Quincy a couple years back!

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A pic of Quincy during the flood of 93.

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The castle "Villa Catherine" that sits on the bluffs. There's a story about the guy who built it loved his dog so much that he burried it in his yard when he died with a diamond studded collar. People have been arrested trying to find the dog and dig it up.

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Elder Malcolm's house. I LOVE the way this house looks.

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Bayview bridge over the Mississippi River at night.

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The AMAZING view from the bluffs near my house. THIS is the reason I love sitting on the bluffs at night.

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The Quincy Museum.

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The road to Quincy. This is the walk I take when I leave the community heading to town.

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And that's it. Long and boring because nothing exciting has happened to me lately. :(

~Sara<3

p.s. I dreamt about that "online friend" AGAIN!!!
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7/13/05

She...

she is a camera whore.

But doesn't like posting her pics.

she likes to have slumber party's.

she likes to dance, even if it is by herself.

she dislikes her hair.

she gets made fun of, alot.

she wishes that her name could be wednesday <3.

she likes to play with play dough.

she's a porn star.

not really. but she will be.

She likes to read comic books.

she likes to be called doll.

she likes to sing when no ones watching...shh.

she is very short, about 5 foot 1.

She is skinny, just 101 lbs.

she is turning 20 on Oct 13th.

she LOVES the dark.

she doesn't lie.

she thinks cybering is grouse.

Unless it's with another girl.

she loves seeing blood.

she loves handcuffs *rawr*

Buffy is her life.

she loves lollipops.

Cherry ones.

she is very emotional.

she thinks that the world is out to get her.

No, she KNOWS it.

she likes girls.

she likes boys sometimes.

she likes parties.

she crys alot.

sometimes for no reason

she likes to get those sign things.

So make her a sign please and she'll post it on her blog.

And then make you one back.

she sometimes looks in her bathroom mirror and makes funny faces.

Because it makes her laugh.

she would like to be kidnapped one day.

she thinks that it would be fun.

she likes bouncy balls.

But not hairy ones.

she DID appologize to the cows.

she wonders if you appologized to the cows?

She adopted a fetus from here, http://bunnysnoog.cyborgcow.net/index.html

She shaves.

And has a fantasy about a bald writer going down on her.

But she won't tell you his name.

No matter how much you ask.

She once wore a fake mustache for three days straight.

Her girlfriend refused to kiss her during this time.

She LOVES spiders.

She thinks about certain people online a lot.

One WAY too much.

She wishes Jessica lived close enough to taste her.

Scotland is so far away.

She loves her friends Haley and Agric lots.

But feels bad about not having a lot of contact with them.

She watches wrestling a lot.

She wants to oil wrestle her girlfriend.

But her girlfriend keeps putting it off.

She thanks you for reading this.

She now wants to read yours.

7/7/05

Well...

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Bipolar disorder is characterized by an alternating pattern of emotional highs (mania) and lows (depression). Intensity of signs and symptoms varies. For many people, manic signs and symptoms may include:


- The "highs" of bipolar disorder
· Increased physical and mental activity and energy
· In the most severe cases, delusions and hallucinations
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Symptoms
During the manic phase, symptoms can include:
· High level of energy and activity
· Irritable mood
· Decreased need for sleep
· Exaggerated, puffed-up self-esteem
· Rapid or "pressured" speech
· Rapid thoughts
· Tendency to be easily distracted
· Increased recklessness
· Quick to anger
· Impatience with other people
Persecutory delusions.
Delusions of jealousy
· False beliefs (delusions) or false perceptions (hallucinations)
During elated moods, a person may have delusions of grandeur, while irritable moods are often accompanied by paranoid or suspicious feelings.

Manic symptoms may also include:
· overly inflated self-esteem
· decreased need for rest and sleep
· increased distractibility and irritability
· increased physical agitation
· excessive involvement in pleasurable activities that may result in painful consequence; this may include provocative, aggressive, or destructive behavior
· increased talkativeness
· excessive "high" or euphoric feelings
· increased sex drive
· increased energy level
· uncharacteristically poor judgment
· increased denial
Many projects may be started but few are finished
Obsession to finish a single project while other work is neglected
Grandiose ideas with delusions of grandeur
Tendency when speaking for sentences trail off without finishing them
Forget words but may invent new ones
Speech may speed up and become unintelligible
Intense urge to do things, even knowing that they are stupid
Get irritated about the smallest things
Ignoring people and criticism
Denial of any responsibility for acts committed
Talking to oneself
Getting verbally twitchy
Illusions of hearing voices of unseen persons
Irritability, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety
· Excessive irritability, aggressive behavior
· Grandiose delusions, inflated sense of self-importance
· Racing speech, racing thoughts, flight of ideas
· Impulsiveness, poor judgment, distractibility
· Reckless behavior
· In severe cases, delusions and hallucinations
o distractibility (i.e., attention too easily drawn to unimportant or irrelevant external stimuli);
o increase in goal-directed activity (either socially, at work or school, or sexually) or psychomotor agitation;
o more talkative than usual or pressure to keep talking;
o flight of ideas or subjective experience that thoughts are racing;
affective instability"rejection hypersensitivity"dysphoriairritability, intense angeranxiety
Poor concentration is an early symptom of this disorder. A depressed person quickly becomes mentally fatigued when asked to read, study, or solve complicated problems.

Marked forgetfulness often accompanies this disorder. As it worsens, this memory loss can be easily mistaken for early senility (dementia).
Psychomotor retardation manifests as a slowing of coordination, speech, and impaired articulation. A person appears sluggish and seems hesitant or confused in speech and intention.
Mood incongruent themes include delusions of control, persecution, thought broadcasting and thought insertion.

Psychomotor agitation can also lead to generalized restlessness.
Psychomotor activities are the physical gestures that result from mental processes and are a product of the psyche. Many psychomotor behaviors associated with mental disorder affect impulses, cravings, instincts, and wishes. The spectrum of agitated behavior includes: Incoherent conversation, Expansive gesturing, Pacing and hair twirling

Feelings of euphoria, extreme optimism and inflated self-esteem
Rapid speech, racing thoughts, agitation and increased physical activity
Poor judgment
Recklessness or taking chances not normally taken
Extreme irritability

Bipolar disorder may be confused with Psychosis, a major mental disorder in which the personality is disorganized and contact with reality is impaired, often including auditory hallucinations and delusions — firmly held erroneous beliefs.
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It might sound bad but living this way makes life more interesting!
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7/2/05

World Wrestling Entertainment History!

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An indepth look at the WWE!
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How the original World Heavyweight title REALLY began! Who really created "sports entertainment!"
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Indepth interviews! Title historys! Top Ten Lists!
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The story of Vincent Kennedy McMahon! The birth, rise, fall and rise again of Hulkamania!
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Part One is up and ready to view here, http://www.606studios.com/bendisboard/showthread.php?p=417991#post417991
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Part Two will have an interviews and true stories from Bruno Sammartino and Buddy Rogers!
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A look at all the defunct WWE titles!
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The history of the Slammy Awards and WWE Hall of Fame!
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Plus MORE!!!
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Do you know what each picture above represents? There are fifteen pics and the first two are...

1. The Sports Entertainers
2. The Wresters

The answers will be posted later on.

~Sara<3