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3/31/06

I...am alone!

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"A lot of Christians wear crosses around their necks. Do you think when Jesus comes back, he's really going to want to see a fucking cross? Ow! Maybe that's why he hasn't shown up yet...it's like going up to Jackie Onassis wearing a sniper rifle pendant... Just thinking of John, Jackie. We love him. Trying to keep that memory alive, baby. [mimes shooting a rifle] I did that routine in Fyffe, Alabama, and after the show these three rednecks came up to me. 'Hey, buddy! C'mere! Hey Mr. Comedian! C'mere! Hey buddy, we're Christians and we don't like what you said!' I said 'Well, then forgive me." ~Bill Hicks

Lora and Emily have left for Normal, IL where they will be spending the weekend with Emily's parents and telling them that she's GAY. I'll be leaving tomorrow morning for Chicago with my step-dad and his friend Jacob where we'll be attending Wrestlemania 22 on Sunday.

Right now I wish I was with my girlfriends. :(
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Seeing Wrestlemania is possibly something I won't get to do again, but if I had my druthers I would be on my way to Normal with Lora and Emily.

This feeling didn't hit me till after they had already left or I WOULD be with them. I honestly just want to call Lora and tell her to turn around before they get too far and come back for me. If my step-dad didn't spend so much money and wasn't looking forward to me going so much I definately would.

CRAP!

Plus my little sister will be over soon.
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My little sister is ALWAYS over here lately. If anyone is reading her blog and wonder why she isn't posting it's because she's always here at my house.

She'll lay on my bed watching tv and insist I keep the attic door open so she can periodicly yell things she thinks will interest me up the stairs. Since she doesn't have school tomorrow she'll probably stay the night. So at least I won't have to sleep in the BIG BED alone.

No snuggling, tho, `cause, EW!

I actually don't mind her hanging around here. We get along well now and she LOVES Lora. Plus she and Emily are becoming friends and have even taken to flirting with each other. It's just harmless girl-tease flirting the way lots of people do, but I think my sister wants to be a lesbian without actually BEING a lesbian.

She wants to experiment with a girl/girl relationship WITHOUT the sex so she's hanging out with us all the time knowing that that's just what she's getting here.

Maybe I'll take her out to the pumpkin patch for a bit of TRUTH session. I do this often and thus it's become a very SINCERE pumpkin patch. (Tho every Halloween there must be one out there that's just a weeeeee bit more sincere than mine.)
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S'okay, I had to stop typing for a while because my step-dad came over. My sister is here now watching tv and I'm online for a few hours. It's 9:30pm U.S. CENTRAL time so ANGELLE if you're out there...

~Sara<3
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Sara's Wrestlemania Predictions

Wrestlemania 22 SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

***WWE Woman's Champion Trish Stratis vs Mickie James
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This is the one I'm mosted interested in. I'd heard over a year ago about WWE tossing around a "lesbain fan" angle for a Tris Stratis storyline. When Mickie James made her debut I knew this was it. Over the months, the Trish/Mickie storyline has went from the second segment on RAW, to lately being right before the main event.

The storyline is much talked about at several message boards I visit on monday night during the RAW show.

It doesn't matter who wins this match. Trish's statis as the Ric Flair of women's wrestling is already set in stone. Giving Mickie the title will only make this fued better and stretch out the storyline, which is a GOOD thing. Mickie's insanity and obsessiveness over Trish is HAWT!

***Vince Mcmahon vs Shawn Michaels
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THIS is just an ego booster so Vince can compete at Wrestlemania. I really could care less and HBK should be wrestling someone that would show off his talents better. Unless Bet Hart makes a showing at THIS match, unlikely, it's a waste of time.
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***Smackdown main event; World Champion Kurt Angle vs Randy orton vs Rey Misterio in a triple threat match
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Rey's time is HERE! As you'll see tonight on Smackdown, Rey taps out to the Angle Lock. THAT, my friends, is a SURE SIGN that Rey will get a pinfall victory and become World Champion.

If Rey doesn't win this I will be VERY surprised. If they give the title to Randy "Get use to headlocks" Orton I will be VERY upset!

***Mick Foley vs Edge
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As much as I like Mick and as much as I'm starting to respect Edge, this match really doesn't interest me much. Mick never has been known for winning a lot of matches so I believe Edge will take this one.

***WWWE Champiom John Cena vs the King Of Kings, HHH
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Yes, Sara is a HUGE HHH mark. Yes, Sara FIRMLY believes that HHH is one of, if not THE best ever to step into the squared circle, but realisticly I've already seen the adds for WWE RAW events after Wrestlemania 22 and it says that HHH will be defending the WWE title in three-way matches against Cena and Edge so...
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***Money In The Bank Ladder Match; RAW stars Ric Flair, RVD and Sheldon Benjamin along with Smackdown stars Matt Hardy, Fit Finley and Bobby Lashley will compete for a guarenteed shot at their brand's champion.
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IMO this will be the BIG shocker of the night as Ric Flair wins it and then goes on to win the WWE Championship from HHH before he retires.

WWE has been building up Flair for months now. An IC title PLUS a solid win over HHH (Not to mention his recent wins over several of the younger WWE stars.) says to me that Flair is getting ready to retire (Semi-retire?) and with HHH's influance (And a guarenteed 12th world title when Flair loses it back to him.) he will be given his "one last run" he's been talking about.

Sara predicts that!

As for the rest...
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"I'm so sick of arming the world, then sending troops over to destroy the fucking arms, you know what I mean? We keep arming these little countries, then we go and blow the shit out of them. We're like the bullies of the world, y'know. We're like Jack Palance in the movie Shane, throwing the pistol at the sheepherder's feet.

"Pick it up."

"I don't wanna pick it up, Mister, you'll shoot me."

"Pick up the gun."

"Mister, I don't want no trouble. I just came downtown here to get some hard rock candy for my kids, some gingham for my wife. I don't even know what gingham is, but she goes through about ten rolls a week of that stuff. I ain't looking for no trouble, Mister."

"Pick up the gun."

(He picks it up. Three shots ring out.)

`You all saw him - he had a gun."


"I hate patriotism...I can't stand it, man, makes me fuckin' sick. It's a round world last time I checked."
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"I smoke. If this bothers anyone, I suggest you look around at the world in which we live and shut your fuckin' mouth."


"Childbirth is no more a miracle then eating food and a turd coming out of your ass."


"You know if you play New Kids on the Block albums backwards they sound better. "Oh come on, Bill, they're the New Kids, don't pick on them, they're so good and they're so clean cut and they're such a good image for the children." Fuck that! When did mediocrity and banality become a good image for your children? I want my children to listen to people who fucking ROCKED! I don't care if they died in puddles of their own vomit! I want someone who plays from his fucking HEART!"


"Why is marijuana against the law? It grows naturally upon our planet. Doesn't the idea of making nature against the law seem to you a bit... unnatural? You know what I mean? It's nature. How do you make nature against the fucking law?"


"I dunno how much AIDS scares y'all, but I got a theory: the day they come out with a cure for AIDS, a guaranteed one-shot cure, on that day there's gonna be fucking in the streets, man."


"I love talking about the Kennedy assasination. The reason I do is because I'm fascinated by it. I'm fascinated that our government could lie to us so blatantly, so obviously for so long, and we do absolutely nothing about it. I think that's interesting in what is ostensibly a democracy. Sarcasm - come on in. People say "Bill, quit talking about Kennedy man. It was a long time ago, just let it go, alright? It's a long time ago, just forget it." I'm like, alright, then don't bring up Jesus to me. As long as we're talking shelf life here..."


"Christianity has a built-in defense system: anything that questions a belief, no matter how logical the argument is, is the work of Satan by the very fact that it makes you question a belief. It's a very interesting defense mechanism and the only way to get by it -- and believe me, I was raised Southern Baptist -- is to take massive amounts of mushrooms, sit in a field, and just go, "Show me."


"I don't mean to sound bitter, cold, or cruel, but I am, so that's how it comes out."


"I'm tired of this back-slapping "Isn't humanity neat?" bullshit. We're a virus with shoes, okay? That's all we are."


"We all pay for life with death, so everything in between should be free."

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"Go back to bed, America, your government has figured out how it all transpired. Go back to bed America, your goverment is in control. Here, here's American Gladiators. Watch this, shut up, go back to bed America, here is American Gladiators, here is 56 channels of it! Watch these pituitary retards bang their fucking skulls together and congratulate you on the living in the land of freedom. Here you go America - you are free to do what well tell you! You are free to do what we tell you!"


"The worst kind of non-smokers are the ones that come up to you and cough. That's pretty fucking cruel isn't it? Do you go up to cripples and dance too?"
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"If the FBI's motivating factor for busting down the Koresh compound was child abuse, how come we never see Bradley tanks smashing into Catholic churches?"


"I was told when I grew up I could be anything I wanted: a fireman, a policeman, a doctor, even President, it seemed. And for the first time in the history of mankind, something new, called an astronaut. But like so many kids brought up on a steady diet of Westerns, I always wanted to be the avenging cowboy hero; that lone voice in the wilderness, fighting corruption and evil wherever I found it, and standing for freedom, truth and justice. And in my heart of hearts I still track the remnants of that dream wherever I go, in my endless ride into the setting sun."

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http://frequency23.org/ has a previously unavailable Bill Hicks mp3 for FREE download! It's a 72mb .,p3 file. You can listen to it online or download it. I haven't listened to it yet but, hey, it's Bill Hicks ( Also, http://www.billhicks.com/ ) ...
http://frequency23.org/component/option,com_zoom/Itemid,104/page,view/catid,4/PageNo,1/key,4/hit,1/
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3/26/06

Just The Facts!

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Okay, I just HAD to show off this ADORABLE woman and her new DO. Angelle; Lora, Emily and myself thing you're an ABSOLUTE DOLL! I hope you don't mind that I sharpened your pic. It was a weeeeeee bit blurred.
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Lastly, the obligatory...LESBIANS!!!
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Now THIS...is SWEEEEEET!
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And look how it ends.
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~Sara<3

p.s. Just so everyone knows, I will NOT be online next weekend. Where will I be? WRESTLEMANIA 22 IN CHICAGO!!! YES!!! IN YOUR FACE!!!
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For Jon ^_^
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A Small Light In The Midst Of All That Darkness! Or, Things You Can Tell Just By Looking At Her!

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I don't talk or really THINK about my sister much. We didn't get along growing up and I wasn't very nice to her. I did...things...to her that you normally wouldn't to your little sister.
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I never PHYSICALLY hurt her. (And NO you pervs, there was NO nasty involved either.) Tho there were more than a few times where she would slooooowly open the door to her room and peak inside out of fear. She also learned to do a complete check of her toilet before using it every morning,

She fought back as much as her young and limited imagination would allow. Her favorite trick was to sit outside my bedroom with her boom box and blast gospil or country music or even sometimes, I could still KILL her for this, the BARNEY song!

"I love you, you love me...
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Lets chase Barney up a tree!!!"

Anyways, since she broke up with her boyfriend she's been hanging out here more often than before. I sat with her all afternoon yesterday teaching her how to make her comp secure and speed up her internet connection.
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She claims to be stupid but she's actually a fast learner. By dinnertime she had a clear understanding of what she had to do and what she still had to learn.

Today me, Lora and Emily went into town shopping. (See the list of MOST EXCELENT things I got from Spencers in the mall at the end of this post.) Laura came by while we were out and thought that we were ignoring her.

My sister is an extremely sensitive girl. When we got home I went next door to see if she had come over and she wasn't there. My other sister said she was out back with the horses so I went looking for her. I found her sitting on the ground behind the stables in the cold without a jacket crying.
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The two of us don't normally have the greatest talking relationship but OMG today we surely did. Once she started talking she didn't stop. The girl told me things, of a PRIVATE nature, that blew me away.
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And while she's telling me all this stuff and as I'm looking at her, I swear this is true, she started to look just like me. Just the way I looked and felt just a few years ago. She made me remember just how hard and confusing and frustrating being in the teen years can be.

You feel SO adult yet deep within you know that there's something inside of you that stops your transition into adulthood. You search and experiment and lots of times do DUMB things just trying to find that thing that's missing.

It's not till you're older that you realize the thing that's missing...

...is age.
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A vicious circle stringing back round upon itself and the only cure is time.

So this weekend we're having another girls lock-in but Laura is included with us. We've already scooched up together on the BIG BED to make sure we could find comfy positions for all four of us (We did!) and my three girls are downstairs now waiting for me.

Once again I will STRESS that there's NO hanky panky going to go on! My little sister is sad and innocent and VERY vulnerable right now and as EROTIC as that might sound...
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...she's still my icky little sister.

Last thought, just to see if I can gross anybody out. Lora has always has a STRICT rule saying NO love making during our periods.
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Emily has no such rule.

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~Sara<3

What Sara got from Spencers in the mall for her attic.
1. A five inch plasma ball. Blue!
2. 19 inch Jason Vorhees statue.
3. A 5 drawer wooded storage cabnet with a gray skull on the top.
4. A hanging Mr Bones with cape and tophat.
5. Two six inch ballerina figurines sitting in a mini garden for just a weeeee bit of color.
6. Pair of Draven Misfit glow in the dark house shoes.

We also stopped at the used book store and I bought two minature hardcover books titled "Little Masterpieces of Fiction" volumes I and III, edited by Hamilton Wright Mabie and Lionel Strachey, and made in 1904. So they're over 100 years old and in great condition and I bought them for two bucks each. So if anyone knows anything about books and wants to tell me if I made a good investment...^_^

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