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Night's quiet came on broken dreams and unfinished promises. It's cold outside. It's cold inside, too, but it's the kind of cold that can't be cured by giggling girls snuggled together under the comforter. No giggles, the girls are sad, and the cold is more of a sound than a feeling.
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Or maybe it's more a LACK of sound. The lack of her voice, her footsteps, her laugh that use to make the house feel so warm. I love the dark and use to keep the drapes pulled at all times so no sunlight could get in. I started opening them everyday right before she came home from school because her being here filled the house with sunlight anyways.
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The first morning we woke without her here it was to the sound of her alarm clock. We'd forgotten to tun it off and it started blaring at 7am. Going into her room to turn it off and seeing her empty bed was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
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Her parents don't have a phone so there's been no contact with her since Monday. We've decided to drive up there tomorrow and sneak her a cell phone so she can call us everyday. Maybe we'll get lucky and her parents will be sick of her already and want us to take her back.

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I miss her so much.

I can hear a dark beast screaming in the distance. Not sure if it's coming from outside the window or from somewhere in the murky insanity that is my brain.

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Tomorrow will be a better day.


From Alan Moore's "The Killing Joke."; These two lunitics had just escaped from the asylum. They made it all the way up to the roof where they could see that all they had to do to escape was jump to another rooftop about ten feet away.

The first lunitic made the jump. Not easily, but he made it still. The second lunitic yelled over to him, "Hey, it's too far. I'll never make it."

The first one yelled back, "Yes you will. C'mon, it's easy."

But the second luntic refused to make the jump. So the first one had an ideal. He yelled, "Hey, I'll shine my flashlight across from my ledge to yours, that way you can just walk across the beam of light."

"Are you NUTS?" The first one yelled. "That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard of! You must think I'm crazy!"


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I feel like I'm an unfunny joke right now.

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For some reason most people I talk to don't like rapidshare. I love it myself. Here's the member index so you can see just what they have online. Lots o' porn here.

TONS of mp3s and music videos.

And here's something cool. A new email host that offers 1,000 FREE gigabytes of storage! I haven't tried it out yet but will soon.

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Moonspider said...

i just everything is well with you darling


TiaxMarie said...

She will find a way to come back Sara, she loves you. I hope everything starts to hurt less.

kubiak said...

I hope you are able to get her a phone or something. Just knowing that someone out there cares about her has to make a world of diference in her life, too. You've done a wonderful thing here, and it's obvioous that she means a lot to you.

If there's anything I can do to help, just let me know! I've been away for a little while, but I'm back now. I hope I see you around too, Sara.