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11/19/04

Sara's Insanity!

Before reading this post please read the one below it. Thank You.

S'ok, now you know where my thoughts are at. I've become almost obsessed with Jessica Dolin. I think she would have liked that. :\ Anyways, my insanity stretches back to for as long as I can remember. My therapist thinks it started when I was eight. It was my first year in Quincy(we had moved from Chicago) and I was standing on the banks of the Mississippi River when I saw my dad die in a boating accident.

It's something I've always had a problem talking about but of late it's been easier. It effected me profoundly, making me absolutely hate going outside. It also sparked a darkness inside of me that I proudly display to this day.

I had my first lesbian experiance when I was 12. My best friend, Kay, and me were curious about each other so one night she was sleeping over and it just happened. This pic was taken the very next day.

Notice how I'm all up on her, but she's sitting normal. Our experiance was a life change for me. I never had been attracted to guys before that, and the experiance pretty much made up my mind about my sexuality. I did have a boyfriend when I was fifteen, but it was a peer presure thing and didn't last.

Sara at 15.
The pic below was taken right before my stay at the "ward for trouble teens" at Newman Clinic.

The pic below is Lora's favorite. It's me on our prom night. She took it as I was talking to my dead grandmother in the mirror.

People that think I'm crazy can now look deep into my eyes and see for yourself if there is madness in there.

Well? Your opinion?

6 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

You look like Mischa Barton in that pic of you & the the girl you had your first sexual experience with. You look different now, but very cute. Don't think about Jessica & her sad story too much. Look to your *live* future, not her dead past.

11:35 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

All these pics of you are several years old. Please post some recent ones. Thanks in advance.

11:14 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

like the pic u look hot. i like looking at your pics, my fave is u talking to your dead grandma too.

i have that shirt u r wearing in this pic.

7:30 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

SO U THINK THAT EVERYTHING U'VE EVER SAID & DONE MAKEZ U THINK THAT UR NUTZ CRAZY OFF THE WAL ETC.WELL DOES IT? U NEED 2 WAKE UP U LITTLE TIT U HAVE NO IDEAR WHAT "HELL" IZ REALY AL ABOUT.TRY WAKIN UP 1 DAY & FINDIN UR SELF IN A SITUATION WERE U FIND UR SELF ON UR KNEEZ ABOUT 2 GET UR BODY SMASHED IN WITH A METAL BAR IN A FEILD,THEN TAKEN 2 SOME DARK CAR PARK IN THE WOODZ & PUT IN A 6FT HOLE.THEN GETTIN YEM PASSIN OUT & THEN HAVIN A 6 YEAR DAY&NIGHT NIGHTMARE CONSTANTLY REE-PLAYIN THAT 1 NIGHT OVER & OVER.THEN AFTER THAT U COME 2 UNDERSTAND THAT THERES ONLY 1 ANSWER TAKE THE PEPOLE WHO DID WHAT THEY DID & ANY1 ELES STRAIGHT IN2 A PLACE U CALL "HELL" BUT I CALL "THE PLAYGROUND,OF PURE HELL/HOME" U HAVE NO IDEAR NO I DEAR.ITZ ALL BETZ R OFF NO RULEZ "GAME OVER"

4:20 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

SO U THINK THAT EVERYTHING U'VE EVER SAID & DONE MAKEZ U THINK THAT UR NUTZ CRAZY OFF THE WAL ETC.WELL DOES IT? U NEED 2 WAKE UP U LITTLE TIT U HAVE NO IDEAR WHAT "HELL" IZ REALY AL ABOUT.TRY WAKIN UP 1 DAY & FINDIN UR SELF IN A SITUATION WERE U FIND UR SELF ON UR KNEEZ ABOUT 2 GET UR BODY SMASHED IN WITH A METAL BAR IN A FEILD,THEN TAKEN 2 SOME DARK CAR PARK IN THE WOODZ & PUT IN A 6FT HOLE.THEN GETTIN YEM PASSIN OUT & THEN HAVIN A 6 YEAR DAY&NIGHT NIGHTMARE CONSTANTLY REE-PLAYIN THAT 1 NIGHT OVER & OVER.THEN AFTER THAT U COME 2 UNDERSTAND THAT THERES ONLY 1 ANSWER TAKE THE PEPOLE WHO DID WHAT THEY DID & ANY1 ELES STRAIGHT IN2 A PLACE U CALL "HELL" BUT I CALL "THE PLAYGROUND,OF PURE HELL/HOME" U HAVE NO IDEAR NO I DEAR.ITZ ALL BETZ R OFF NO RULEZ "GAME OVER"

4:20 AM  
Blogger morgan said...

To anonymous above: Ya need ta stop yellin at people. Everyone has their own reality or insanity. So who are ya ta be tllin her that yer form of insanity is worse than her's?
To Sara: Like the pics yer very pretty.

5:00 PM  

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