3/13/05

sTrAnGe dAzE FiNaL pOsT

It's very quiet now. 3:30am and not a sound to be heard.

There was a time when Erika's dog would be barking his ass off right about now, but then I killed it. I joke about it now but when it happened it was a serious thing. I was sixteen and admitted my crime then paid for it. So when a time like tonight happens for me, when I'm alone and can reflect, it's okay to think such thoughts, isn't it?

Maybe not.

I'm going out for a few now. To see if my horses are okay. Maybe I'll take the toilet paper with me.

Maybe not.

I was gonna call Lora but decided not to. She has a lot to do tomorrow so I should let her sleep. Plus that way she can surely be up and home early. I'll probably still be up waiting for her.

I'll be back online, unless something unexpected happens, before too long. Maybe and hour.

But maybe not.
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11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sara, I've got to get some sleep right now but remember,if you ever just need someone to talk or anything like that, let me know. I'm not too hard to find, and you've got my e-mail address, too.

I'll be in touch with you tomorrow. (Or rather later today, actually.)

XSaraXPoeX said...

Ever notice how when some people gp to sleep, 9-10-11 o'clock at night, when they wake up it's the NEXT DAY! But when we go to sleep, we wake up on the SAME DAY!

I LOVE that! :)

Nite, Jim<3

~Sara

Anonymous said...

That's a good point, and I hadn't really thought about it. ;)

Well, I got my 5-1/2 hours of sleep! Time to start another day. Hope you're doing okay.

Anonymous said...

...Wildcats sit and growl...

OK, that's from "All along the watchtowers", sorry.

It would piss me off if Elsa perched on my shoulder, how does that feel for you? I'd have thought an eve or two with her pestering elsewhere would be a pleasant rest. Oops, hi Elsa (just kidding, lol).

Spring will belatedly begin to arrive here next week. Today I sowed or planted 29 varieties of vegetables indoors and out, could be a record for me.

I'm concerned about the wall thingies - anything that lives in walls is unlikely to be nice once it escapes them - I strongly recommend you learn techniques to communicate with and / or control them.

I feel that the 'unsticking' may have started. Things seem to have got (globally) constipated the last few (4 to 6) months. So, it will get more 'interesting' - both good and ill - very soon, my guess is 20th March as start, lasting for 3 months, then it will get pensive for 3 to 6 months before the serious shit starts.

...Two riders were approaching, and the wind began to howl.

L&BB, Agric

Anonymous said...

MOONSPIDER



I have had days like that a long while ago.....the mind plays many tricks

there are moments that you are caught talking to yerself just to keep your sanity in check.

the sounds that you never heard of seem to just come out of knowhere, all at once.

the cricketing of the wooden floor, the rustling of a piece of paper against the wind, the delayed drops of water that run from the sink.....the sound of the wind againt the glass, the tapping of a branch against the tiling around the house...everything and anything becomes a hidden visitor in our won home.....you question whether or not you are realy alone.



evarything become alive when you are alone....to cause harm to your mind and to yur sanity.

was that creaking you heard from the attick...or is it coming from the kitchen...and more importantly....it is man-made....or is it simply the house settling?


our imaginations runs wild in the darkness....our minmds are without limits on what it can create with your sorroundings....

your head whips into the direction of the sound like a cat who's heard something from miles away...we are alert, we are at the ready.....we are alone, but our mind creates company.....company that not manyy may want or could ever imagine


sound....our greatest trick

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Anonymous said...

Sara, don't know that you'll read this, but wanted to say "hi", since I haven't had the opportunity online with the board being down so much and all. I'm going to e-mail you a link you might be interested in. (Website stuff.)

The offers still on the table too, you need totalk or whatever, you let me know!

Anonymous said...

hey, can i also jump in (or do a wrestling run-in) on a conversation if yah ever need tah talk too deary?


I'm usualy on AIM alot anywho...just thought i help if anything...it's okay if yeh dont feel like talking or anything dear....just trying to help and HUG!!!!!!


AIM: CrimsonKamen
E-mail: CrimsonKamen2000@yahoo.com

Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

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